Notes from June
On Nostalgia, having a crush, articles to read, media I loved, what to do when you’re sad and so much more.
19/06/2025 Diary Entry
I woke up early today at 9 am to visit my bestie for her master graduation at the university I absolutely adored, so I wore my cute top from Stradivarius (the Ganni dupe with puff sleeves), beige pants, and kitten heels. I mixed two perfumes with different notes, it smelled really good, and I left my hair wavy, though unfortunately half the curls turned out weird by the time I arrived.
I was so excited more than anything, to see my favorite professors and be back at the place where I had only beautiful memories, but I didn’t know things had changed that much. I took the metro and remembered how I used to take it last year and how much I loved walking.
When I got there I saw the trees, the lab I worked in, the birds… and even though I missed it all, I didn’t miss it that much. Sitting there felt normal, like maybe I had just been romanticizing it too much in my head. Then I entered the classroom for the presentation, saw some of my old professors, and they didn’t feel the same anymore tired faces, maybe from all the lab work.
They asked about my current path, and I answered, but honestly, the energy wasn’t like last year, especially on my graduation day, which was so full of excitement. Then suddenly I saw him sitting in the corner of the classroom the person I’ve been dreaming of since last july and I didn’t even recognize him at first. He wore a black T-shirt, looked tired, jeans, nothing special. I didn’t act normal didn’t say hi just froze.
I watched him a few times from afar, but he never looked back. I kept pretending not to care but deep down it hurt . He wasn’t the same person who once looked at me so kindly when I was stressed in the lab, who made jokes to see my reaction, who noticed my absence and supported me when I could barely breathe
That person is gone.. I wrote in my diary while he sat in front of me, read a Substack piece to distract myself, but it was hard to ignore everything. I realized something in that moment maybe I had built a version of him in my mind and that version doesn’t exist.
But honestly it wasn’t that bad of a day. The moment I entered home and checked my phone, I saw the comments on my latest Substack post people were loving it. I saw sales of the mini guide I created just a few days ago and it made me so happy. I can’t even explain it it was this sudden wave of gratitude, like okay maybe this is what matters.
Maybe it’s not all about being noticed by someone who can’t even say hello. Maybe it’s about being seen by people who do care. And that made me feel happy , supported.
On the way home, I saw beautiful things too birds, beautiful trees , roses, and a white butterfly that floated past me like a sign. I even ran into an old high school friend, Lilia we hadn’t seen each other since 2018. We laughed, talked and caught up like no time had passed.
Later, I went to my grandma’s house and as usual she listened to me yap about my entire day, and then handed me the yummiest croissant.
I realized my new bangs actually look cute when styled right (yes, I cut them short this time, lol). I thought about all the articles, books, and YouTube videos waiting for me. All the chances, the places, the people I’m yet to meet. I even watched a movie when I got home Love at First Sight on Netflix and it genuinely made me smile.
And that’s when I realized: no matter how sad I get, no matter how heartbroken or ignored I feel there’s always something or someone to bring me back. And for that, I’m just so so grateful
Here’s a mini list you can try when you feel so sad I hope it brings you even just a little bit of peace.
Go home, wear your favorite pajamas, rest, cry if you need to, and journal everything that’s on your heart.
Sit on the balcony and just reflect on the day. And at that very moment, try to stop overthinking really it’s not worth it.
Eat sweet treats or gelato trust me
Look at the good things that happened to you today even if they’re small. There’s always something.
Watch a movie you love so much, or play your favorite comfort YouTuber the one you always go back to when everything feels heavy. Let it hold you a bit.
Deep clean your room. Clean your space, your house. It always helps.
Start reading a book and allow yourself to be fully immersed in it, even if just for twenty minutes. Let it take you somewhere else for a while.
If you feel like crying, don’t stop it. Just cry. Trust me it works.
Write a diary entry even just a few messy lines. Actually I realized yesterday that Substack has become my second diary. And I’m honestly so glad for that. I didn’t even open my physical journal I just went straight to Substack and shared everything I felt.
Sometimes I do feel sad about being a hypersensitive girl it’s not easy. But on the other hand, I feel lucky I can feel everything deeply and it’s actually a great thing
And remembering those little parts of myself actually brings me comfort. I also deeply believe and have seen it happen again and again that after every moment of sadness, after every low point, comes the biggest glowup. Truly Every time I feel broken or down I somehow find my way back to myself.
I start taking care of me again moving my body, going on walks, thinking about my future learning, growing. And honestly I feel so happy knowing that you’re all here with me, watching how I’m growing day by day seeing me navigate this messy and magical time in my twenties. I love this journey because it’s real. And I love that I get to share it with you.
20/06/2025 – Friday morning
This morning, I woke up from a dream about him. And honestly, I think i never really liked him I was just obsessed with the idea of him. Even in his silence, there was something so sad about the way he sat in class completely isolated ,I could barely see his face, but I could feel his energy and weirdly all my friends said the same. It felt like he had lost a bit of weight and maybe a bit of light too .
I’ve been reflecting a lot lately. I’m the kind of girl who loves deeply and when that heart breaksI tend to close the door completely on love on having a crush, on everything . I overthink every small detail. But maybe this was just a sign to move on.
What happened a year ago won’t repeat itself people change. And I’ve learned that no one stays the same. So the best thing to do is leave the past where it belongs: in the past. And even if you love someone deeply or like them intensely, it doesn’t mean you won’t find someone who loves you back with the same energy maybe even more. That person just hasn’t shown up yet.
After waking up, I deep-cleaned my room (Friday reset mode), ate some sweet treats, helped mom make mini pizzas, journaled, made a gratitude page, and wrote down some reflections. I checked Substack comments and out of nowhere, I grabbed my MAC lip liner and a gloss because honestly I love feeling a little pretty at home. It lifts my mood. I’ve also been thinking about the habits I want to build this month new routines, new energy. I realized I now have over 4,000 saved videos on TikTok (yep), and I’m trying to consume more intentionally...
What i read yesterday :
Thank you so much to everyone who bought the Summer Rebrand Guide I truly hope you enjoyed it as much as I loved creating it. Seeing your support means the world to me. I’ve saved each buyer’s email and you’ll all be getting free access to a full month of my paid Substack content, where I’ll be sharing media consumption, personal essays, detailed recommendations, journaling prompts, and more.
This will start next months but for now, everything is completely free . I’m also incredibly grateful to those of you who motivate me every day and are excited about the upcoming ebook. This community feels so unique and special and I’m truly lucky to have you here.
As for the ebook, I’m working on it little by little and you can already register via the online shop to be notified when it launches early supporters will get it at a special discounted price before it goes up to its regular price.
I’ve also decided to create more weekly guides, paid articles, or mini courses until the end of summer to keep you inspired . I’ve been thinking of turning my media consumption posts into downloadable PDFs or digital products, where I’ll share everything from the movies I’ve binge-watched to the videos I loved, the ideas I wrote in my journal, and lessons I’ve learned throughout the week.
I also gifted 7 copies of the Summer Rebrand Guide by email, and I’ll continue doing little surprise drops with future products so stay tuned, because there are many more surprises on the way. Honestly, June has made me feel so inspired, and I’m just really excited
See you soon, angels! Another paid guide is coming next week along with a free one ! 💌
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