The Uncertain Future

Twenty-Something and Full of Questions

A pic i found on Pinterest

Lately, I’ve been sitting with the truth that the future is deeply uncertain and that can feel overwhelming. Not knowing where life will take us in five years can be scary, but also strangely hopeful. There are infinite ways life could unfold, and many of those ways might be beautiful.

It’s been almost a year since I graduated, and I’m still unemployed. That’s not easy to admit. I never imagined it would be this difficult to land a job and reach financial stability, especially as a fresh graduate. I scroll through my wishlist and think about everything I want the things I’d love to buy, the freedom I crave. Then I look at where I am now. It’s humbling.

But something shifted in me this week. ALL the TikToks on my FYP telling me to trust the process and believe that everything will come in perfect timing. I used to laugh at that, but now I’m leaning in. I’ve started to believe it. And just like that, my mindset is changing.

I wasn’t planning to post today, but I couldn’t leave without saying something. This will probably be my last Substack post of the spring. I’ll miss you all deeply. I don’t know when I’ll be back maybe after summer ( maybe august idk yet ), maybe before it even starts. Honestly, I have no idea.

We’re nearing 3,000 subscribers now, and that still blows my mind. Thank you for showing up, reading, and caring. This community has become something magical. So many writers here use Substack as a part-time thing some even monetize their work. But I always resisted that. For me, writing has been sacred. I didn’t want money to change the way I felt about it. Still, it takes a lot of energy. A single post can take 3 to 4 hours to write and polish. After long pieces, I often feel completely drained.

I’m the only one responsible for my future. If you’re in the same boat unemployed, applying to jobs, trying to figure out your next step I see you. It takes so much energy and courage. But we’ve got this. Truly.

I wouldn’t call this the end of my blogging era on Substack but it is a pause. A long, necessary one. I’ve been reflecting a lot lately on my identity here. I don’t really see myself as a content creator more like a creative person with tons of ideas and passions… but often, not enough direction or energy to bring them all to life. And that’s tough.

This morning, I read a substack from

Gabrielle

that i really liked :
“Sharing your goals gives you cheap dopamine.”
Honestly? I agree.

Every time I share a goal with someone whether it's family or friends I feel this instant rush of excitement. But weirdly, that excitement doesn’t last. I end up losing motivation and not following through. Like, what is that?! It’s so strange.

There’s real power in privacy.
There’s magic in moving in silence.

Sometimes I look back and realize that a version of the life I once dreamed of actually came true. Four years ago, I longed for community, for connection,for people who would resonate with my thoughts and ideas. And two years later, it happened. I created something meaningful. I built a space, a little world of my own, and people came.

So why now when I think of new goals do I hesitate?
Why do I sometimes feel like it's impossible, or too far away, or just... not meant for me?

Maybe it’s fear. Maybe it’s just part of being human.

We tend to freeze when things feel unfamiliar when the next step is outside our comfort zone or when we can’t control the outcome. It’s like our mind tries to protect us from disappointment by convincing us not to try at all. But that’s not fair to the version of me who once believed anything was possible. The version who didn’t know how, but still tried.

I think I just need to remember that even if it’s scary, even if I don’t know the ending yet it might still be beautiful. Just like it was last time.

I saw a TikTok video recently a girl was saying we should go after our goals, put ourselves on socials , and try everything. And honestly? Yes. A big yes to that.

Because I did try. I tried YouTube, Substack, other platforms. I experimented. I explored. And somewhere along the way, I found myself gravitating more toward writing that’s where I feel most like me.
So maybe it’s time I start believing in myself more.
Because at the end of the day… we tried. And that matters.
Trying is brave. Trying is rare. Trying is proof that we still believe there’s something beautiful waiting on the other side of fear.

We forget how capable we are.
We forget that we once dreamed and then made that dream real.
And we can do it again.

Lovelies we can definitely stay connected on other platforms! I’ve actually started being active on Twitter again, and I also created a private Telegram channel just for my Substack readers and a few mutuals. It’s kind of like my little corner of the internet where I share everything updates, thoughts, random favorites so don’t forget to join if you’d like to stay in touch.

Telegram Channel

Instagram

Twitter

Okay i will share some of my favs quickly :

1. Minimal makeup for spring / Summer

2. Daydreaming of summer days

3. Watching old movies / romcoms

4. Wavy hair

5. Curating my wishlist

6. Consistent pilates routine

7. Time on tiktok ( ofc lol)

8. Focusing on haircare and natural products

9. APPLYING SPF DAILY

10. Using Thermal water especially when it’s hot out

11. Watch documentaries on youtube

12. Eat french crepes and croissants

13. Read saved articles

14. GATEKEEPING

15. Watch kdrama

16. Powder blush

17. Eat yummy food

18. Watching videos from YouTube ( I find amazing people there I’ll share my digital garden on my other socials 🫶🏻

19. Watch and read more content with my native language ( i write and read a lot of english i started to forget arabic and french helppp

Few articles i read this week :

1. Gen Z's safe space

& life goes on.

she's a cool girl.

What is taste and how do you get it?

the case for living life in seasons

your fear of looking stupid is holding you back